Clueless!

I've already written another blog and discarded it, cos it was just complete rubbish. Okay, it wasn't complete rubbish, (Complete rubbish can't come from such an awesome person like me, now can it?;p) but anyway it was just completely chaotic and it was confusing even for me.

Anyways, but wherefore all this confusion, I hear you ask in a mighty harmonious concerned chorus? Well, the usual problem. I feel empty. Hollow. I honestly don't have a clue where I'm headed. I don't even have a clue about where I wish I were headed. I'm that clueless. I suppose I'm a hopeless romantic and a dreamer gone wrong. Rather than working towards my dreams, I work towards trying to figure out what they are. And what's more? Every goal I figure out seems too ridiculously absurd to work towards. Dear me, I'm even a shame to all real hardcore dreamers! Oh God, I really need to get a life!

Back to reality. My current practical feasible goal is doing well in my exams, which might and might not happen. I don't have a clue (there I go again- I just love the word 'clue') since I've never yet sat for English Literature exams at the university, and therefore it's gonna be a leap into the darkness. According to my sister I should not worry, but I don't know about what I should worry according to her. Let's just hope I do well in them, since literature is by far the most stimulating part of my flawed course. At the moment prospects aren't so brilliant. The only thing I'm capable of doing towards this noble end of doing well in my exams is worry and stare at the flowery patterns on my bedsheets, in between reading some poetry and trying hard to decipher my dear sister's scribblings all over the pages.

Anyway, I' ve been writing this blog for so long that I'm now totally fed up and don't even know whether I actually got down to writing down what I initially intended to. I'll give you thrilling updates about my snail-like progress on my inhumanly long German presentation next time. And if you haven't registered it by now, I'm pretty darn disillusioned at the moment, so please excuse me if I'm being a complete pain. Take care!

Till next time,
Lizzy
xxxxxx