"this beautiful never-ending... nothing"

I just watched The Good Girl and I wept like a baby afterwards. It is such a sad little story about the impossibility of running away from one's utter loneliness, it is about delusion, disappointment and failure and sadness and tragedy and shattered dreams. What makes it so tragic is that it's the story of so many people. I also took the title of this entry from it. And then I went on IMDB to look the film up and read that assault charges against Christian Bale have been dropped. This made me smile and thus I realized that I am what is technically known as a loser.

Summer has been quite good so far. It started out with a blast. I, the undersigned, the undersigned wimp I might add, went to a rock festival. And I survived! Well almost, I wouldn't have without my sister's apartment to sleep in for two hours/ shower every early morning. I watched Radiohead play live in front of my bespectacled eyes and I still cannot believe it happened to me. My idols from my teenage years just a few metres away from me. Nine hours starving in the same spot took care of the short distance. They played for two hours, which amounts to practically a whole gig:) Just before Radiohead came on, I had the privilege to watch Sigur Ros play their ethereal heart-wrenching music at sunset, which amounts to quasi-perfection. My exhaustion prevents me from elaborating further on the festival and the other acts we were lucky enough to watch.

I started work at Centrecom and it's as soul-crushing as booking flights all shift long can be. But mastering the reservation system is quite a challenge, even if a terribly unstimulating one. But thankfully the environment is quite friendly and my shifts are usually not bad. I work four shifts a week usually but now I'll probably make it a point to reduce them so as to have more time to read up for my thesis. I've had this one single thesis idea tucked away in my mind since April and finally i plucked up the courage to go talk to Dr Callus about it and realized I hadn't improved on it since April. I already feel like a pretentious incompetent git for having had the guts to go talk to Callus when I'm so clueless. Time will tell.

I guess I'll have to leave now since I'm out of wordless music I can blog to. Just one word of advice to those who haven't yet had the good sense to watch The Dark Knight. It's amazing, haunting, visionary. I MEAN IT. I did not want to leave the cinema when it ended because I wanted to rewind it and watch it all over again. Yes. It's that good. Heath Ledger is perfect as the Joker. And Christian Bale is Christian Bale. Guess I should be off now. Had more to write but it just fizzled out into hazy drowsiness.

Liz
xxx